The morning after the night before
Aug. 6th, 2005 07:39 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
neongraalI woke up sad this morning (I was fighting off worse, trust me). And one of the most sad things was how after a nice and generally enjoyable evening with friends (just don't mention the cat seen on the drive there) I came back home and went to bed and was sad.
Semi-surprisingly to me I wasn't particularly lonely, but I was sad and anxious about, ..., errr, ..., stuff :) And that does mean I'm not sure exactly why I was sad except for as follows which doesn't seems to be enough {Sigh}:
Of a majority of my thoughts were around how a good many of my best friends, the people whom I would love to spend more time with, are meeting new and interesting people (something I definitely enjoy doing) whilst engaging in pastimes that, on the face of it, I might be interested in, but just am not. And I'm not going to pretend an interest just to meet people. Cause 1) thats wrong and 2) they aren't really hobbies you can "pretend" an interest in.
An unhappy Struan, I hope today goes better.
Semi-surprisingly to me I wasn't particularly lonely, but I was sad and anxious about, ..., errr, ..., stuff :) And that does mean I'm not sure exactly why I was sad except for as follows which doesn't seems to be enough {Sigh}:
Of a majority of my thoughts were around how a good many of my best friends, the people whom I would love to spend more time with, are meeting new and interesting people (something I definitely enjoy doing) whilst engaging in pastimes that, on the face of it, I might be interested in, but just am not. And I'm not going to pretend an interest just to meet people. Cause 1) thats wrong and 2) they aren't really hobbies you can "pretend" an interest in.
An unhappy Struan, I hope today goes better.