Sitting at work listening to my mind spin

Some part of me want to type out a great big rant/dump. but another part of me say, "you did that recently and it only helped briefly".

Topics include sanity, loneliness, self-knowledge, fun, desires, wants, passion, friends, home, communication, self-image, exercise.

Problems include getting out, being visited, doing stuff, risks trumping rewards, anxiety trumping joy, thoughts not waiting to be written, running away.

I think I might try and do the full rant tonight, but it will contain some stuff that some people might think is aimed at them, when it isn't. I'm going to try and remember and recreate the current feeling(s) {unhappy as that currently seems} and go from there again.

It probably will be phrased as a request for help, cause on so many levels right now I don't know what to do next and doing what I'm doing right now isn't working.